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The Drifter — Reflections

Well, I am done with my Drifter trilogy, which, of course, is not technically of much significance to anyone but myself. If I had the 1st of the 3 stories published- that might be different. But no matter what, it was a huge step for me, because- in a way- this was the first story I took seriously. It’s the first story I imagined myself publishing, not because I think it’s good enough (for some reason I’m constantly finding problems with it, even if I can’t figure out precisely what those problems are) but because I just kind of aimed that direction more than usual.

I researched the Civil War for this story, I looked into a few different kinds of diseases, I read old stories I normally wouldn’t bother with, I studied PTSD (am still studying!) as well as numerous other, small things that have changed and affected my life more than normally.

Now, of course, I know about these things, I will have to put them into other stories. I may even go on with Mark Kingston’s story, if I can figure out enough reason to do that. In another story I’ve already invented a machine that helps retrieve memories, often helping in cases involving someone with PTSD- though I don’t know if that would actually help!

Anyway, yes I am done with the Drifter trilogy. Of course I’ll have to edit and probably change a lot of things (adding about 2 weeks to one story, due to a sickness that takes much longer to develop than I had them there!) but editing is just not the same as creating! I’ve already gone on the journey, now I have to look over the photos I’ve taken and choose what I want to remember from the journey, and what needs to go.

I had a misty forest as my background during the last of November and I would gaze for a long time into the distance of the forest, thinking about my story- and wondering why I was thinking about my story. I don’t have misty forests in my story, especially not this one- just smoky forests if anything. Then I finally figured out why I’d think about my story (and it very well may be the reason why I think about it, though it took me a moment to fix up the beautiful idea)

I was standing in the misty forest- a beautiful forest- and I was watching as my story was swallowed up by the distant mist, being shrouded behind all the other ideas that will come up in my head that will eventually form to become a new story. Other stories have sunk into that mist until I can’t see anything of them.

I don’t know if this story will fall back into the formless gray- until even the outline is indiscernible. I never do know what will happen to my stories, either the good or the bad, the favorite or the much-avoided. In a way, it’s much the same as the last scene in my story- where my main characters are in a burning building, having accomplished their task, they think they’re going to die, and actually I don’t know if they do or not.

So there I was, listening to the playlist for my story on the second to the last day of NaNoWriMo, when I suddenly realized that I’d come to the end of the Drifter’s story. I wondered about all sorts of things- mostly: why did I call it Drifter when I almost never refer to that name in my stories? I think it’s actually more of a state of mind that I’m talking about, rather than I title.

But I did start to wonder if this story would sink to the background as many have done before- even when I thought they were so important I would never even come up with a new story (yeah right). As usual I wondered how I could possibly forget about this story- as I’ve done several times before.

Fortunately I don’t think that will happen. After all, I have to use what I know about the Civil War and PTSD. That’s not quite the same as the storyline itself, but I don’t think I can forget this easily.

And then there are the things that you don’t expect to change you. Like Mark Kingston. He’s a pretty normal guy that I don’t even like that much, and yet I think he’s the type of character I can’t get away from easily. It will be a while before I can let him fade in the mist, which may prove problematic for my other characters!

Yes, the Drifter’s story is done for now, except for editing, and I don’t know what’s ahead for me in the forest. I admit it, it’s scary. I’m a hopeful person and I can almost always say in this sort of situation that there’s still more ahead, which is true- the adventure is still coming- but sometimes I just need to stop and know that what’s behind me is something I’ve been working on for several years, something that was a part of my life for a long time- and still will be. It’s behind me, I can’t go back- the Drifter’s story is done.

Character Curiosities

What do I like in a character? That sounds a little like the questions: what (or who) do you want for a man? What type of guy? And I guess that’s kind of what I mean. You want to get involved or get to know someone, but it shouldn’t (can’t) be just anyone. It has to be the right person from the start for you to know him (or her) better, and then, if that goes well you go on getting to know them, until you know each other well enough to start a serious relationship.

Well, that’s a lot what it’s like when your figuring out your characters (especially the main character)! You have to decide what sort of character you want, especially depending on what story you’re writing. But if you have a character that is very hard to write, and you find him annoying, and he never does what you want him to, and he’s boring…

Well, that probably means you have the wrong type of character. And unfortunately it can be pretty difficult to fix that sort of problem- at least for me it is! Because once you have a character in your head, even if he’s boring, it’s hard to get him out. Often I find that, oddly enough, the character has effected the whole story and I am no longer interested in writing it at all. (That’s probably because I’ve gone in strange directions in the plot in order to create enough interest because the character is dull)

And clearly you want people to read and (more importantly) enjoy your writing! Fortunately, I think it’s possible for dull characters (to the author) to be written, and the readers will usually find something very interesting about them. I don’t know why this is, because it’s very important to write characters (and plots) that will hold the reader’s interest, but maybe it’s simply the fact that the person outside of a piece of work will see the process overall, when it’s finished and when there’s a lot to take in: meaning that the person that made the piece (whether it’s a painting or a novel) had to work on every single detail and now he’s used to seeing all the small, dull parts rather than the whole thing.

Interestingly enough, I’ve had to write characters that are shaped purely by what I need in a story. Often the case is that the characters and plot are developed simultaneously. I think of a dark plot and I decide it would better if I didn’t have a clown as the main character. But writing a single-mindedly gloom-cloud would be unpleasant so I give him a bit of humor (or, because I usually forget to include a joke, I imagine he has humor, which then effects his personality) and then I decide to put in a few plot twists because that’s fun and it would be a good way to show up some of my character’s curiosities. And so, for my writing style, the plot affects the players and vice versa- but I think there would be some similar process for a lot of people’s writing.

But a story I was writing recently, involving time travel and the Civil War, was one of the few occasions when the plot determined, almost purely, what sort of characters I would have.

I decided that, in order to make a few of the things I wanted to write about happen, my character had to be different. I wanted him to try to change history, get involved in the fighting, attempt risky, bizarre things and initiate much of what would happen in the story. So, what I had to come up with was a character that’s a bit of a loose cannon, independent, authoritative (but not necessarily someone that would take command in a situation with lots of people), intelligent, pretty ambitious, stubborn and reckless. And, considering what he was willing to go to in my story, I figured out he’d probably be a bit selfish (which he’s constantly contradicting), guided by his emotions and not always considerate of other people’s opinions or needs (which could fit in with being selfish, but he seems to specifically veer in this direction). What I had to add to work even more with the plot was that he had been trained to be a paramedic (and for some reason dropped that idea. I think he knows why he did that, but I haven’t figured it out yet) and that he has low self-esteem (this has to do with a later plot development and I still have to figure out if it works with his personality. Oddly enough, I think it does- but he doesn’t seem to have a normal kind of low self-esteem. What supports this idea is that he is quite unwilling and surprised to be put in the position of a kind of rebel leader. If he had high self-esteem he would probably accept the task without question).

So clearly the plot dictated what sort of character I would have. And fortunately it’s a very well developed character with a lot of traits that fit. What came out was: Mark Kingston.

Then I decided another character was needed to work with this one. I don’t know why I decided this, perhaps because of the plot again. I think it was partially because I thought that having too much of Mark Kingston might be a little overwhelming. So I decided to go, more or less, in the opposite direction. I decided I wanted a character that was quieter, wouldn’t take the lead but would quite possibly work extensively behind the scenes, effecting everything in small ways. I wanted (again, I’m not exactly sure why. I think it might have simply been because I wanted this type of character to write) someone that you automatically liked, more relaxed and you’re sad when he’s hurt (which does happen). Basically: I wanted a sidekick. But wait- sidekicks are clichéd! So I decided that I still basically wanted the same character, but not overly follow-the-leader, not dependent on anyone else, not too quiet. I wanted someone you could take seriously and wouldn’t immediately be put into the position of a sidekick, simply someone that came along for the ride. What came out was Jeremy Anders.

These are the two main characters in my Civil War story. I have several others- unfortunately many that simply fill in the necessary holes, such as the absent-minded, controlled scientist, Derek Shelby (Shelby, after Shelby Foote, who wrote a huge trilogy on the Civil War that helped me a lot with my research). Fortunately, Shelby decided to develop himself in the second part of my stories.

Characters do that a lot, where they suddenly take off on their own. But that’s a whole different blog post that would make this one record-long!

Felicity Prose…. Happy Literature

I don’t know if I do write happy literature, actually. I am apparently famous (in my household) for torturing my characters. I rarely ever literally torture my characters, but they’ve been impaled, had problems knowing which consciousness they’re brains belong to, fought at Gettysburg, traveled through time with disastrous results (in one case he forgot everything and was taken back in time to his younger self, which isn’t technically a bad thing, but losing one’s memory is inconvenient when the world is about to end and you’re supposed to stop it. In another story, a character got lost between the times and kept hopping around through history). In a story I will be writing in November for NaNoWriMo, my character will be dealing with post-traumatic stress disorder (not fun) and in the story I am working on currently I’ve already given my character telekinesis (with the added problem of temperamental blindness), not to mention the fact that just about everything and everyone he cares about has been destroyed (I actually put him through such unpleasantness quite by accident). So I guess I do torture my characters (again, not yet literally, because torture would be quite difficult to write) and I don’t write happy literature.

But I am happy when I write (and I basically only write literature, because nonfiction is dull for me to write, except in this case, when I get a chance to talk about myself). And that’s what I mean: Felicity Prose, because I typed in ‘fiction’ looked at synonyms and found literature and from there found prose, and I thought Felicity Prose sounded pretty cool.

I thought I should explain that, just so you know that my name isn’t Felicity Prose- it just expresses what I do and that I like doing it. And sense I’ve brought up some of what I’ve put my characters through, I feel I owe an explanation as to why I do it- although sometimes I don’t have a reason. But I don’t think I can explain or show you what I do to my characters because that would take quite a long time, so I’ll just post things from my stories occasionally.

So… here’s to felicity prosing……